*SCREAMS* both my my phone bills have come in -(mobile and internet) much, much bigger than I thought *tries not to panic!*
and my wages are never gonna cover them and leave me any money for the next four weeks!
Except for going to work, doesn't look like i'll be outisde these four walls :(

Orbs Tomb a site I frequently lurk lol! has just been updated and she has the most beautiful quote on her site! just had to share

Give me a few friends who will love me for what I am, or am not, and keep ever burning before my wandering steps the kindly light of hope. ~anonymous

made me smile...

Just watched John Edward (crossing over with....) on tv, been watching for a while ,
what a natural talent quite - scary sometimes! I'm very intrigued...

Well, well, well been almost a week!!!!!!!!! gods! to tell the truth I haven't really felt like doing much ,
yet I have so much to do blah!
Mostly things are just so boringly normal, work, sleep and the never ending tiredness that I can't seem to shake...
so I guess a visit to the doc's may be in order, i'm not sure but there may not be a vitamin left in this little body lol!

That's it, guess that's what happens when you don't get out much and your friends live too far away..... hell maybe i'll not feel so down when I start feeling a bit healthier.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! why is it I can't spend my own fucking money!!!!!
I go to get a box of wine and the girl tells me that she can't accept the £20 note I gave her because it's 'irish'

Hello!!!!! it was sent by my parents form 'northern' Ireland,
I said to her 'does this say punts on it........that would be no!' it says sterling which according to me means I can spend it!

So lesson for shop keepers - 20 punts= 'irish money' £20 northern bank note = 'sterling and legal tender' grrrrrrrrrrrrr!

*sneaks in again* haha!!!!!!! *sorry too much wine!*

yup..still here....daylight again before I tell myself to sleep
well it wasn't wasted back in touch with a friend who I now discover is into wicca! so gonna have some very interesting discussions anyway zzzzzzzzzz............... oh! and managed to add the 'comment' to the posts as I have decided I wanna use the guestbook for another purpose

*gone*

WOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOO! well on the 17th I became 30 years old! don't know why the wooo hooo now cause It wsa actually quite a scary deal to me on the day, thank gods I look so young I may just remain 20 something for the next few years *winks*

Got some of the greatest presents! a beautiful dolphin ring and bracelet, a kenny phone cover and the most tremendous hand carved wooden dolphin statue from my sister, got some money from mum and dad and my friend even adopted me a dolphin! a real live dolphin!!!! *squeals* and she's gorgeous!

My brother and sister surprised me with a visit and that was one of the best presents in itself lord knows I won't see my bro til xmas again....

And now for the week away!!!!! well most of it was spent sleeping and being very drunk lol! now that's a holiday! hehe! They have the cutest little dog smarter than some people I know!

I loved it, late nights talking into the early morning watching films and the vids I had brought down with me, laughing and just feeling so comfy and on the last night a very, very drunk me meeting all the guys from my friends work and falling over quite a lot *giggles* Can't wait for the next time lol!

*long sigh....* well I was working on posting on my fab week away but I have got me the biggest headache, must leave now grrrrrrrrr!

BACK!!! had the most fantastic time!! can't believe this week went so fast, more later....tired now...

Made it to Brum!!!!!! and I love it, everything I hoped it would be ,
feel like I could stay here forever......don't want to go home!!!!!!

Let's see, just about packed, had a cold shower felt damn good and woke me up a bit
been cleaning up ever since so there's not a huge mess in my little room when I get back.
but now i'm tired so whatever is left can wait for tomorrow......

The interesting day so far....
well, got up around 9:30, got all the laundry done, phoned my dad he was 60 yesterday, then headed right back to bed for a couple of hours then got the clothes back in and and started packing for my trip tomorrow. I'm still trying to do it arghhhhhhhh!

Yes yes I know......i'm outta here *yawns* jeez guess who was bored again *blah*

haha!!!!!!! found this on another blogg Personality Disorder Test
Intersting results *grins* paranoid, compulsive and avoident scoring the highest lol! not like me at all *coughs*

"when loneliness and paranoia feeds me
god help the person who needs me
if ignorancce is bliss
then take me off the list
i'm leaving........"

Trying hard not to make it a late one tonight got too much to do tomorrow, packing and stuff.......yup i'm going off for a week I can't wait!!! a whole week of fun with one of my best freinds!!! ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!

But who can sleep in this heat!!!!!

At work from 12 to 4 today groggy and hot, gods it must cool down soon I just want to curl up and not move again :( and i'm feeling so drained....

BORED BORED BORED BORED! yep, no-one is around might call it a night I guess *sigh*

Well, I made it to just after half 5 last night eugh! why do I let myself do it lol!
we had a power cut for a while around ten, and I was so stressed about it happening again when I was asleep that I woke up, looked at my watch thought 'shit! it's ten to 3 i'm dead!!!!!!!!!! ' ran downstairs ,panicking, to phone work only to find out that it was 9.20am and I ,in my groggy morning type way, had been looking at the watch upside down lol lol lol!!! *shakes head* I can be such a pratt :)

So of course now i'm completely exhausted, and hungry..mmmmm dinner calls!!

yes it's after 4 in the morning and i'm still here.... and I want this!
*hands outstretched for coins* lol! ah go on you know you want to lol!

*sigh* I have been majorly scammed!!!!! by these guys Big Blue Sky my isp.... i had trouble all week, couldn't get online and finally someone answers the phone today with the words *ceased trading* nice of you guys to inform anyone , though why am i surprised.
do I look stressed
Anyway have now gone with another isp which i should have no bother with lol!, besides that it was a pretty good day for me spent another day shopping and got my dad and bro their birthday pressies and posted them off , what a relief .

ohh!!!!! added a place for comments on the log in case anyone feels strongly enough to have anything to say about my rants!

Managed to drag myself into the town and get a birthday present for a friend (late as usual) and I have to get presents for my dad and brother too tomorrow I NEED MONEY!! top it all my isp has fucked up totally for at least two weeks and still might return with me having to pay which i'm having to do at the moment *growls!* so i'm gone.....

*yawn* so groggy............well perhaps i'd better get up or get out of the bedrom and away from this computer! gave the blogg a bit of a spruce up and I love it! :)

zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz........*falls over*

ok. so..... it's late , blogger is fucking me around GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!

Bored, awake, blah.................

"and i5 minutes later we had our first taste of whisky........."

God bless Shane Mc Gowan *grins* ahhhhhhhhhh I feel better now

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! could today have been more stressful! i'm losing it.........
I'm gonna give myself a heart attack, work is a disaster, it's so busy with the half price sale going on and of course I was trying to do the paint order at the same time in the middle of the mess created by orders no-one else has bothered to fucking put away or even put through the computer *bangs head of wall!!!!!*

To top it all I have ended up with the keys as Rob, who had to come at 4 to collect the keys he had to come and give me this morning as I hadn't had them since being on holiday eugh, walked out and went without them as I was kinda getting pissed off with his constant telling me that he had to leave and to hurry up saying he didn't have to be here so I reminded him of the times I had arrived at 5:30 to cash up on my days of when I didn't want to be there either!