Music: HIM - 'Love You Like I Do'
I have to leave tomorrow for a week and I'm freaked out about leaving the kitty, like really upset. Gah, I'm so sad, I want it to understand that I will be back that I'm not abandoning it, like it's obvious has been it's experience before. I still have to pack, I ended up spending the night preventing my absurdly drunk mother from burning the house down and of course it makes me see the alcohol problem I have. And maybe such a lot of my frustration and madness at her is that I blame her for that, i'm her 'drinking buddy' I'm who her world revolves around. I'm simply used, an enabler and recently I'm tired and I have to be responsible for my choices. I don't have to follow.
I don't often, in fact I don't think I have asked that anyone do this but on this on I'd really like comments, viewpoints, maybe I just need to know from outside.