Sometimes I think too much..
Music: Tyrone Relph - 'This fuckin letter'
Have you ever had periods where you felt just so apart and isolated that, deep, somewhere the seed is sown that perhaps it's deserved? That you aren't and you won't ever be good enough, witty enough, smart enough or confident enough to ever be worthy of being anywhere but the outskirts peeping in at life? That seed grows fast and the roots wrap themselves around your mind telling you constantly not to try, to stay safely aloof in your bubble, because you wouldn't want anyone to find out that truth, to dissapoint them, would you? To do otherwise is too terrifying a thought. And those roots suck up any tiny glimmers of hope that perhaps you could come closer without rejection, you could join in, and they leave behind only the distrust in the human race to reinforce your efforts to pull away even further.
Yup, sometimes I worry me too...
'And there's nothing wrong with me
This is how I'm supposed to be
In a land of make believe
That don't believe in me'...
(uhhhhh ps: Check out Tyrone (local guy) there are little snippets under 'downloads'. Coolness)