old habits die hard

Awake and dealing with an old demon....... food. At one point I managed 51/2 stone and after dealings with doctors about an already existant condition which would consequently degrade my bone density and a newly discovered heart condition I was pulled into reality enough to wise up for a while. But why the initial concern about weight? At just under 5foot you can't afford the extra but tonight saw the return of an old situation, food, dinner that was offered made me emotionally and physically uncomfortable, it hurt, it made my stomach sore and me uncomfortable and I am notorious for backing away on and stopping anything that upsets me so i expect liquid to be a mjor part of intake for a while.....

Don't judge or chastise, not at least untill eating as made you feel so physically wrong.