Friday, May 04, 2007

Alcohol, my permanent accessory...
Music: None



Alcohol, a party-time necessity
Alchool, alternative to feeling like yourself
O alcohol, I still drink to your health

it used to make everything sparkle, pretty, now it only means broken bones, embarrasment, bruises and friends who pity you. But this dark hole that I try to fill, I can't, It won't go away. I have been beyond a depression even I want to admit. who understands? Who helps when you are 'anon' but screaming and have cried for no reason for days, nor eaten.

I would love, yet probably wouldn't beleieve or accept a reply right now because i don't deserve it.

3 Comments:
Blogger gregor said...

I think you deserve to give yourself a break from what ails you... stand outside the familiar for a while and take a look back in and see what causes you to feel this way. And, if I may be blunt, lay off the libations... not good for your health in many ways, neither the physical nor the mental. I speak from experience, my dear. And I'm not preaching, just making a suggestion. All things in their time and all that rot. Feel free to unload on me anytime if you need to chat it up, I've well practiced ears.

12:00 AM  
Anonymous tarrnna said...

*hugest bear hugs ever* I love you hun, just the way you are. I know sometimes we all feel totally alone and like the dark hole we are in is determined to fill in on top of us. But do remember always, you are special to A LOT of people, you are loved by A LOT of people, you are cared for by A LOT of people. And...that I am ALWAYS here for you. *more bear hugs*

1:07 AM  
Blogger mD said...

*Hugs Gregor!* I fear I am sometimes so overwhelmed with life, just simply being and finding things so difficult that I am paralyzed and seeing outside of that or walking away seems an impossibility. I seem in constant battle with myself somedays I win and somedays I fall. It's hard to put to words really. I think disturbing recurring dreams, lack of sleep and bad coping mechanisims pushed me way over my limits heh....

Tarrnna, you are so, so wonderful! *bigger bear hugs!* I think with what you have on your plate you have more of a right to truly go crazy and deserve more from me too. Thank you sweetie!

1:54 AM  

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