Thursday, August 28, 2003

*waves*

Uh so, yeah...... on hols untill the 6th (and running incredibly late) Expect sporadic reports ;)

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Tuesday, August 26, 2003

Quizziness

Senko
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I really like that :) And now..... me needs a sandwich *grumbly tummy*

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Just disappointed...

Why must the human race continue to try and convince me it sucks. I was already aware it did..... I understood that a long time ago, your preaching to the converted, I get it. Care to cut me a break now? At least before I start using terms I despise such as 'humans' for the non-kin and mundane who walk this world just to distance myself...

I've given myself a headache, think I'll wander away for a bit and continue to wish people would put their brains into action before they do anything

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Monday, August 25, 2003

Alive...Just...

Yes, I survived the hen night though it took me until this morning to feel 'normal' It was completely insane, but a certain chief bridesmaid, lets call her 'C', needs to get a hold of herself. Things were going pretty damn well actually, everyone was having a blast and no, they did not need you running around after them telling them when to drink, what to drink, when they should stop, who hadn't done this or that fast enough. Damn girl!!!....... maybe we all should have sat quietly drinking cola and being terribly polite huh?

We all met at the house around 6:30, the whole place was decked out with balloons and we had a table set out on the patio as it was pretty nice with heaps of munchies and of course as it was byo there was an abundance of booze and everyone by the end was making drinks up and poring bits of everything into their glasses lol! Needless to say by the time we were heading out we probably shouldn't have been allowed in anywhere (especially with my sis in a huge pink tutu, silly veil and rainbow fairy wings hehe!) but we ended up at the only place we could find that would accept a hen party. Everyone had a great time, dancing, laughng but it wasn't for me *shivers* truly awful - mostly because the men (or should that be boys) who frequent the place are animals. The sort who think it's perfectly acceptable to push their faces down your chest or push your head elsewhere. Pigs.... I'm still flaming but one of them certainly won't forget he pissed me off in a hurry as he now has a nice set of scratches on his chest and a ripped shirt. Moral of the story if your gonna behave like an animal you'll get the same in return and this cat has claws......he's lucky that's all I did.

Asides from that it was much silliness and we managed to get my sister on the bridge just outside and covered her in so much stuff it was horrible and boy did she stink lol lol!!!!!!!! We amnaged to get my dad to pick us up, no way was a taxi going to take her *evil grin*. Had a few more drinks when we got home and just totally collapsed. It was really cool that a few of those who were there came back yesterday too and we all just lay in the garden laughing and going over it all hehe!

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Saturday, August 23, 2003

Numb - Linkin Park

Numb

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
feeling so faithless
lost under the surface
I don't know what you're expecting of me
put under the pressure
of walking in your shoes

[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
every step that I take is another mistake to you
[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]

I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you

can't you see that you're smothering me
holding too tightly
afraid to lose control
cause everything that you thought I would be
has fallen apart right in front of you

[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
every step that I take is another mistake to you
[caught in the undertow / just caught in the undertow]
and every second I waste is more than I can take

I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you

And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you

I've
become so numb
I can't feel you there
become so tired
so much more aware
I'm becoming this
all I want to do
is be more like me
and be less like you

I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
Is everything what you want me to be
I've become so numb
I can't feel you there
Is everything what you want me to be



because it's just awesome...

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Friday, August 22, 2003

Just a little nervous..

*and highly medicated now thanks to someone going earlier and getting me some painkillers, yay!*

Saturday is my sis's hen night, I truly have no idea what I'm supposed to be doing, thank the gods for those who've done these things before which means we at least know where we're going and we have lots of icky stuff to cover her with at the end of the night lol! I have to go get a cheap pair of handcuffs tommorrow (stop sniggering now!) as we've decided to cuff her to a lamppost so she can't run hehehehe! And the biggest thing of all is that I don't have anything to wear so I'm stressing about that too. I so want it to be a great night for her and don't want anything to mess it up especially me looking a mess. Tommorrow will be a last ditch effort at finding something or just going through and revamping some old faithful, which quite frankly given that we are going to be chucking eggs, flour, sauce, sugar around may be the better idea :p

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Thursday, August 21, 2003

eep...

Head hurts... can't find painkillers.. *ensue panic*

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Wednesday, August 20, 2003

Ta Da!

Yes I have been driven to play with the forum colors and look again, I can't help it, there's something cathartic about changing something, anything around the site when I'm working through my little 'phases' The problem is it's often sporadic, I never have any plan or thoughts I simply must do something so throughout the day things can look quite wierd one minute and completely different the next. So to anyone who was round, your not insane - just me having no clue what I was up to and just seeing what I liked by trial and error hehe!

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Tuesday, August 19, 2003

A little better

I was rudely awakened at 8am this morning and dragged out of bed, seems wrapped up in my 'life sucks' pity party I forgot that today was the 19th and I had another hospital appointment to fit a heart monitor, this one I took home with me and have to put up with, as with the bp monitoring, for 24 hours (looks like a mad little mp3 player or something lol). They have cellotaped 3 electrodes to me and I think I'm allergic to the tape because it's no longer comfy... So it's another early day for me tomorrow as I have to bring the thing back (they also informed me of the results of a deeper bone scan from a while ago, of course I knew, my spine is a piece of weak crap and the bone needs built up but so far my hips are fine...hurrah...) Well as I was already out I asked to be left in town, in fact I got rather imaptient and angsty because I knew it was a now or never thing and I needed to get there before I changed my mind and just went straight home to hide. It afforded me a visit to the butchers for those who will appreciate that fact ;)

Aside from the above it seems the houses in our area have been targetted for burglary, and they are breaking into the garages and wrecking cars. I live above our garage... imagine just how hard it is to sleep when every noise is a drug crazed, iron bar wielding joyrider or headcase who may possibly know you are up there *shivers*

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Monday, August 18, 2003

What can I say...

Found over at EXy's

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You get famous:April 7, 2066
You make $$ per/year:$2.00811446266832e+15
Do people like you?You suck.
Dead/Alive:No one knows
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kinda running with the 'things are sucky' theme huh... *small grin*

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Sunday, August 17, 2003

Back away from the crazy girl...

I am so irrationally angry and volatile right now, a coiled spring that if I take the pressure off will see me careering aimlessly around my life and destroying it. I can't let it go and create hovoc but a release must become available. I don't want to open my door, I don't want to deal with anyone in fact I'd quite happilly stay safe within these four walls I call mine coseted and comforted. Even I don't like me right now.

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Wednesday, August 13, 2003

Random Quizziness

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Idol


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*blinks* I'm sure I don't have a superiority complex! I do rule the world mowahahahaha! *calls minions to arms!*

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Tuesday, August 12, 2003

Relief and sore arm!

Spent from 9:30am Monday to 9:30am today hooked up to a blood pressure monitor, soley because as I've mentioned before I totally panic when in hospitals, I hate them. There was some concern, despite my protestations that my blood pressure was up because of where I was, that I might have a problem hence the 24 hour monitoring. Well my BP checked out great, and boy was I smiling, it's amazing how you can start to think 'what if there is? What if they're right!' My arm is aching as the damn cuff self inflated every 15 mins and just about cut off all circulation. It felt so damn good when they took it off this morning. Really liked the doc I was referred to, she was very laid back and friendly right from the hilarity of our first meeting in which she couldn't locate a heartbeat to attatch the electrode to and a conversation ensued in which she asked if I was definately alive because it appeared I was dead and I replied that I was indeed the undead and hadn't anyone told her lol lol! Gods it was just too bizarre. She then asked what I was doing in school, now *looks up at pic, top left* I'm not a bad 32 and I do get quite a few people who think Im a lot younger than I am but that was scary. Embarrased looks were exchanged when I had to explain that I had actually left school about 14 years ago. Why she wasn't aware of my age if she had my case notes or details I'll never know lol!

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Wednesday, August 06, 2003

Shoeness!

Well, I did actually manage to get up and made it to meet the others in pretty good form I might add considering even at that hour of the morning it was already atrociously too humid and warm. We made a decision that we would move quick, get in and out of every shop and in that way would waste no time and probably get through a lot more stores. It seemed like we had left it too late, all the sandals were in sales with only maybe one or two pairs left, never in our size and we all needed the same shoe anyway. But, the gods smiled and just as we had given up we wandered into one last store and there they were! In all sizes, just what we were looking for style wise and more importantly within budget, and here they are :



Just simple, pretty and I can actually walk in them as the heel isn't too hig :) and the little diamonte buckle actually is pretty much similar to the the buckle on the brides shoes so bonus!

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Tuesday, August 05, 2003

Meh Meh Meh!

Tomorrow (10am) I have to meet the 2 other bridesmaids and we are going shopping for shoes for my sisiters wedding. I have zero want to be up and in town for that time of the morning.... nor to wander round an over populated city center especially when it's so damn humid and warm. My face right now is the definition of petulance and if I were a two year old I would have a tantrum. Damn this having to behave like an adult... On that note it's looking like a storm is coming, thunder and lightening , and the rain is about to hit, so before my computer gets leveled I'm going to switch off and watch it :)

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Friday, August 01, 2003

Grumbly Rumbly Belly

Uh-huh.... I think if I'm going to have eaten anything today I had better do it now, and it's a perfect excuse to pick up the chinese I've been craving (nothing to do with the fact the off licence is next door to it and I also have a hankering for some nice fruity red lol!)

*runs off*

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*Happy dancing her ass off!*

Looky looky what has arrived! I'm officially going to see the Ozz man :D

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