ARGHHHHHHHHHH!!!

Yup, screams of frustration... anyone know anything about the spacec@m 200 from trust.com anyone? a simple plug 'n' play that umm... WON'T! Support actually was pretty great and e-mailed me right back but it hasn't helped I can't locate any drivers, the installation keeps asking me to insert windows 98 cd before it will carry on with the installation almost as soon as it begins and it seems to, as far as I can make out, want a *inf file that doesn't appear to be there. I don't think I'm being stupid here I mean I managed to install the scanner without all this annoyance grrrr! when did things get so complicated, or my computer get so old......

What would you rather?

Interesting question posed by -m in her journal

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If you could have your choice between the most wonderful, vivid and seemingly real dreams of pefect, undying love each and every night, but be alone the rest of your waking life;


or....


have nothing but horrid, disturbing, terrifying painful and seemingly real nightmares each and every night but have a loving mate the rest of your waking life, which would you chose and why?
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You know, I think I'd have to go for the disturbing nightmare option, at least your love would be there to comfort you when you woke and you'd have them all the rest of the time too... to me there'd be an emptiness in having the most wonderful dreams of perfect unflawed love, no matter how real, for what is the short period of time your asleep, to awaken to nothing.... I don't think I'd like to find myself in that position

Productive, kinda...

Didn't get up until late afternoon, I could just sleep and sleep and sleep right now, stumbled around and headed off to pay the rent and leave library books back [late as always! lol!]

Finally got some laundry done and some fresh new bed linen on that I bought at Ikea when visiting my sis, so the bed seems even more inviting espcially as I'm just out of a wonderfully relaxing warm bath and drowsy :D The rest of the place looks like a bomb hit it as everything just kinda got emptied out of the bags all round the place when I got home. Not too worried though, it aint going anywhere and I'll sort it eventually

On a grrrr note, I have to go cover at work from 3pm to close at 5:30 It's only a couple of hours but I hate the day getting broken up like that you know?

A couple of painkillers...

...and a bit of a nap later, I at least feel functional but I'm heading back to bed again. Just had to share this though, results of a fairy oracle card reading done for me by a friend [thanks Star :)] from the forums Coolness!

1-present position/magic of nature
2-Immediate influence/laughter
3-goal or destiny/romantic partner
4-Distant past/body movement
5-recent past/sexuality
6-future influence/happily everafter
7-something u question/preoblem resolved
8-position in life/look inside urself
9-inner emotions/make music
10-final results/follow ur dreams

*aspect the card represents/ card turned up*

In Pain....

I can barely see, my fucking head is expoding and I think I'm gonna throw up and burst into tears, I haven't had one of these in a while and I think it's making up for it.

The time at home was fabulous!!!! lots of birthday goodies and clothes, I haven't had any new clothes in so long I was drooling lol!, and being spoiled. Made me wonder what in the name of the gods am I doing here...Not that I mean I would move back to live at home, just closer, and my sister was saying the same thing she'd like me to move closer to her if I didn't want to go back to my parents..... who knows.....

'everything is blurry and everyone's so fake and everybody's empty and everything is so messed up'

just beern listening to Puddle of Mudd a lot recently, kind attatched to those lyrics....

Now, I realy cant type any more, think I'll go lie in the dark and curl up

Well Well!



Not that I hadn't come to that conclusion already lol!

Guess that's it for now, well for probably a week as I'm taking a break and going home until the 18th and computer access is going to be touch and go, I'm sure someone will miss me :p All birthday gifts are packed up already so I don't arrive without them lol!

Till later *out*

*Smacks head*

Argggggghh!!! remembered today that my dads birthday was um..... yeah..... yesterday, shame on me *hangs head* Must try to remember that my brothers is tommorow. I always get them mixed up meh!!

Good job I'm going home on Wednesday, I can bring both gifts then, still, can you say guilt?

From the tagboard

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i think that you shouldnt slag of hunters when you obviously have had no encounters with a genuine hunter

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pfffft.. bite me *roflmfao*

Happy Dance :)

My friend has been visiting since Saturday, which has meant not a lot of time spent on the forums :( and with comments like this

'Dark,one of the things I admire about you is your openness when discussing how you are feeling.I often don't tell all of what I'm feeling for fear of being thought weird.I'm learning to open up more since coming to this forum,I wish I could do the same in real life'

I appreciate more every day those who take the time to post, make the place their home and most importantly take a chance and leave themselves open.

Speaking of my friend she will now be here to Thursaday :) and it's been great, lots of alcohol, talking rubbish, aren't those times the best? lol! The highpoint being today/tonight as it was her birthday and we decided to really just go mad which led to the two of us very drunk, not quite sober yet!, in the local all 'gothed up' and scaring this very small place, was worth it to see the reaction, sometimes it's fun to stir up the populace and give them something to talk about, or at least that seemed like it was a very valid reason at the time hehe!

On the site front just added a new blog and now guess I'm going to lie down and let the room carry on spinning :D