2004!

Well, it's officially new years eve for me, so yeah it's almost next year lol! I'm off tomorrow to celebrate in style, going to pub to see a local band and staying in a hotel in town with friends as it just makes way more sense than spending a fortune (and frustrating hours of waiting...grrrrrrrr..) on trying to get back home by taxi. Have a safe and happy one :D!!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well, I think it's been long enough :)

So, finally although I'm now word blind from code, there is a new blog layout, same stuff just threatened it with pointy sticks untill it moved around mowahahaha! Seems I have a need to get things changed in time for the new year so anyone who also visits the forums will find it looks a little different too, but it won't just yet, I think the 1st wil have to do if I'm sufficiently alive to manage it lol!

My friend is arriving tommorrow to stay with me for the new year,and I still have a couple of presents for her that need wrapping. I better finish up on this machine soon and deal with that and other little bits and pieces so *out!*

The x-mas crash and burn...

Yup, the whole thing seems to have caught up with me the last couple of days, and I definately didn't feel so hot today, crushing headache, very dodgy stomach and I have slept on and off the whole day. X-mas, despite the stress, the hectic pace and crowded house, went pretty well and contrary to most years there were no arguments although occasional tension lol! On the present front everyone outdid themselves and were so generous. I did pretty well :D a DVD player, a TV video combo, x-men 1&2 on dvd for the new player, Darkness cd , beautiful dragon tea light holder, underwear, 2 glasses wth "moo!" on them (love that lol!) and a cuddly snow white reindeer (too cute!)

On that note sleep time, or at the very least an attempt at it

g'night!

Just a quickie!

Well it's christmas eve, sis and her hubby have arrived, more familly members to follow over the next couple of days and the in laws are invited for boxing day so all in um....... lots of people.

I'm holding up well in fact on the social interaction scale of 1 - 10 I might have made it all the way up to 5 these last couple of days! Rounds of applause and proud mumblings noted hehe! Well guess I'm off back into the fray again, mostly to continue stealing chances to poke at my presents in an attempt at identification weeeeeeeeeeeeee!

Feeling Festive

Yup, despite the burning eyes and the nagging headache (and the silly cam pics lol!) I'm really getting into the spirit of things. We finally have the tree up, all the normal twinkly lights in windows etc and all the buying stress is sooooooooooo over. I can relax, whatever isn't done, simply isn't getting done now accepting that has removed quite a load. Besides, it snowed, which was totally gorgeous :D

Drunk like me

Ohhhh yesh baby!!!!!!!!! totally stressed because I actually made a latch ditch attempt at xmas shopping today, and it was worse than ever though thankfully finished with (bah humbug and all that good stuff), and being totally abandoned as bro and dad are out at xmas "do's" and my mother is working I found some vodka and made good use of it ha! As the house was empty I decided to stay in there (well, they've got the big telly haven't they lol!) and settled down to watch Blade II on cable which I enjoy much more than the first one and I also happened to see as you get to the end of the credits "no real reapers were harmed in the making of this film" laughed my ass of, never noticed that before.

I am aware the above plainly shows I have no life, but that's what happens when you move away for two years and suddenly come home, most of your friends have had the same idea and have buggered off too *shrugs* one in Australia, on in Galway, one in England and etc... can be a while between visits lol! At 32 it's just too hard to start infiltrating myself into various "groups" and "cliques" again, and would I want too? May be a great novelty for a while but guaranteed, at some point I'd feel my life was totally invaded. I don't expect anyone to understand, it's just how I am, a solitary being who loves peoples company on her own terms, rude and horrid as that sounds, too set in my own ways I guess. This brings me on to another subject, a little while ago I remember mem talking about being away from work for some time and how difficult it is to get back into the swing of the corporate, working world especially full time. And you know what, I understand, I totally get how daunting and scary it is, I've been out of work for a year now because as mentioned before my bones think they belong to an 80 year old and right now medication etc will hopefully build them up slightly over time, but the thought of the first time that someone says I can go back to work terrifies me, and it's not the work itself, it's a routine, it's interaction with real people, things I don't have a huge ammount of right now. I'm out of practice, and yes scared. Part of me wants to continue being invisable.

Gods..... maybe I should drink more lol!

Anyway, enough rambling before it becomes even more strange, I'm going to give my vodka sodden mind a break and continue watching "bedazzled" and no, not the hurley and frazer redo, but the Moore and Cook one. Now there's comedy :)

(and to all those huggers so far, thankies peeps you made me smile :D)

Too cute!

Just found this over at Orb's and hey, who doesn't need a hug now and again eh?






*HUGS* TOTAL!
give mDark more *HUGS*

Get hugs of your own

Anyone?

Someone get me coffee stat! or drag me under a cold shower. I just can't seem to get going at all and I'm staring at the bed knowing that if I go over there I'll never make it back out again, even sitting here I'm fighting to keep my eeys open. It's ridiculous, what's worse is that I know that no ammount of sleep will make a difference.

Yesterday was utter craziness, I finally decided I was going to have to face the town or leave everyone presentless this year, not really the best option, and it goes without saying that the place is nuts. I haven't been pummelled by so much stress and frustration in a long time and I really got snarly. With "move!!!!!!" "fuck off!!!!!!!" and "would you get to fuck out of my way!" (unintentionally) overloudly issuing forth from my mouth I'm amazed I didn't get a fist launched at me or end up in a huge row, perhaps I have a death wish lol! but I certainly wouldn't have been daft enough to respond to my ravings had I met me. I am such a headcase *shakes head*

*above was actually written around 1.30pm yesterday but just as I was about to publish NTL realised we owed them money and killed the computer, phone etc as they tend to do

Well today hasn't exactly been thrilling and eventful, for some strange reason I decided to torture myself and head into town again but almost there I changed my mind and couldn't be bothered, so did some banking instead and got tickets for myself, friend and her love to see a local band playing at New Years. I have no idea what they are like but it's the only place that everyone is happy to go.

Anyway, for now I'm going to veg and watch Lord Of The Rings which has just started, YAY!

Scotland and Izzardness

It has been a tremendous week, utterly brilliant and I hated it ending today, hated the prospect that the whole experience was over. Friday my sis picked me up from the ferry with one of our friends who had arrived earlier that day (we grew up with her and are all like sisters :)) we headed back to the flat, ordered lots of pizza, me devouring my normal cheeseless tomato and mushroom, and drank wine while chatting and deciding what we might do while "T" (friend) was there for the weekend. Saturday was hysterical lol! Went shopping around Glasgow, got back to discover another girl we knew (scottish) and a friend of hers were coming down so sis, her hubby, myself, "T" met the other two in Budda for a meal and a few more drinks. Such a fun night, we all ended up pretty smashed and terrifying a young, poor greek student who was our waiter for the evening. Eventually he would only come out if someone was with him hehehe! Sunday was pretty subdued, and we just about got up in time to leave our scottish friends to the train station. we then decided it was cinema time and went off to see S.W.A.T. followed by Matrix : Revolutions, although I loved it I did feel just a tad let down considering the calibre of what had gone before, and we just ended up coming out of there with "what?" all over our faces. Left "T" to the airport on monday evening and the the majority of the week was pretty mundane with sis and hubby back to work and normal routine and me left to my own devices and wanderings.

That brings us round to Friday again. Waited on sis to get back from work and then we picked up my brother. We had a blast, poking fun and taking the mick but all in good humor lol! We all headed back to Budda on Satuday afternoon for a few more drinks and food and then myself and bro took off for the SEC Glasgow for the triumph of the entire holiday, the comic genius that is Izzard. I don't think I've ever seen such a huge crowd, the place was enourmous and packed, It was like a rock concert in there!!!!! I thought I was going to explode with the insane atmosphere in the place. We didn't have to wait long before the man himself strode on stage in a red boob tube (fake breasts included) short black skirt and black knee boots looking fabulous as only he can. Second half saw a change of skirt for a long black sparkly number and and the red top changed for black also. My stomach and face ached from almost squealing with laughter from start to finish. The pace, the way the man thinks, well unless you've actually seen him it's way to hard to put into words, to describe except of course for phenomenally and incredibly funny. He's a loathe him or love him kinda guy and I'm a die hard fan, suprised you there eh? ;) You "get him" or you don't though with every gig a sell out it seems many more do than don't. And just to give you a quick peek at what I saw I did manage a couple of not too bad photos:





(Above images are (C) to me. I find these reproduced anywhere else without my permission and I will beat you to death with pointy sticks, poke you with them afterward and then sue you for damaging the sticks! hah!)

And now, I'm totally wrecked and can't really focus any more so good night!

Very Excited!!!!! *in dodgy welsh accent*

WOOT WOOT! Well right now I'm ready to drop with tiredness, yet I'm waiting on the dryer to finish with a load of clothes I need to pack, being as tired as I am this will entail me racing around early tommorrow screaming at everyone and raced of my feet because I just can't be bothered to start packing now. Good job I'm not having to leave untill about 2ish.

And where am I going you might ask? I'm off to Scotland for a week to stay with my sister but that's not the best part (although it will be so good to spend time with her!) the reason I'm going at all is that I have a ticket for the gorgeous and incredible Mr Eddie Izzard *has fit!* I can't wait *bounce, bounce, bounce!!!!!!!* Yes, yes, I've seen him a million times before, met him and I'm still as excited as the first time I ever went to a gig weeeeeeeeeeeee!

Anyway, this does mean things will be quiet around here for a week, miss me? :p

Where did it go!

Can't quite believe it's December, this year seems to have raced by and now I find myself needing to get in gear and get present shopping, before only the crap is left, but loathe to go anywhere near the heaving city center and fight my way around without any idea of what I want. It's fantasically freezing, but grey and dull, the kind of grey and dull that leaves me incredibly unfocused, unmotivated and vacant I swear my natural inclination is to hibernate, just makes sense, and it just seems so unatural, so unfair to have to fight against it *hrmph..*